gclayjr wrote: ↑
Wed Jul 12, 2017 5:10 am
t has been my unrequited dream to travel internationally for over 3/4 of my life to date. I'm finally getting into a position where I believe that I may have the budget to do so as early as next winter or spring, but I'm also feeling like it would be unwise to not save that money against a day of need that is coming very soon.
I always wanted to live in a rural area near a small town (maybe in Utah) and basically go nowhere. After I got out of the Marines, I got a Job that involved extensive travel in Latin America. I Later worked a number of other Jobs that involved more moderate travel, but Still traveled all over the U.S, Canada, the Czech republic, Sweden, and New Zealand. Also, small towns I used to live in, like St. George/Washington Utah are no longer small towns and I would hate to live there today.
I have often thought how unfair it was for me to get to see so much of the world, when basically I didn't give a d#mn, and I knew others lusted after it. I guess, while such dreams are important, as I have often told a daughter of mine who is going thorough some difficulties (many of which are her own making) you've got to play the hand you've got, not the hand you want.
PS: I am retired, live in SE Pennsylvania and have 6 children, all of whom live within about 20 miles of me. I have often told people. that I didn't choose this area, it was simple a job move, but if I'm to be "stuck" somewhere, it is not a bad place to be stuck. It is beautiful, and is a pretty good place to live.
I joined the Marine Corps, looked forward to seeing the world, and I saw Camp Pendleton. Oh, and an exercise in the Angeles National Forest north of Los Angeles. I went reserve, went on a mission, and came back just in time to miss my unit's deployment to Desert Shield.
Life is so incredibly, unbelievably unfair. You want to have a nice, small piece of land in an area where you just want to stay put but it seems you can't find that. You don't want to travel but have had ample opportunity. I want a place to call home that I can return to and to be able to take frequent trips but I can't have that. Then we both get to hear people complaining in testimony meeting about the worst trial of their life and shake our heads at what people call sore trials and think that if they spent a week experiencing our worst struggles they would implode.
For whatever reason, unrequited dreams seem to be a burden many of us have to bear. And in almost every case I am aware of, the people with such a burden are surrounded by those who are living the dream. It seems I can't go anywhere without hearing somebody talk about their next trip to Europe, but I guess that doesn't suck as bad for me as the infertile women who can't escape being surrounded by mothers or the never married women in their late 40s or later surrounded by women always talking about their husbands. And hearing the heartbreaking stories of women who committed to eternal marriage only to have their husband turn abusive, unfaithful, or become addicts and saw their families fall apart are even worse than the previous stories. It's terrible to never have a family, but to spend your entire life in a Families are Forever culture only to have yours ripped apart seems so much worse!
George, I really appreciate your response. Sometimes I want to blow up at people who try telling me I'll get the opportunity to travel in the Millennium. Really? I can't wait to go see where the Eiffel Tower used to be, where Himalayas used to be, or where the beautiful islands of the South Pacific used to be! When the Concorde jets were returned to service after the crash in Paris I did everything I could to save money so I could have that experience, only to find myself unemployed and spending all of that savings then going into debt.
Yes, for whatever reason many of us will never realize dreams that are very important to us. In that case all we can do is embrace the suck and look forward with curiosity for the promised day when something I am incapable of comprehending happens - we receive a reward next to all of those people who got to live every one of our dreams to the point of taking them for granted and somehow feel we've been made whole.