So, on to the principle that I am identifying today:
Make a searching and fearless written moral inventory of yourself
This has probably been one of the hardest steps to take when we decide to turn our lives over to God. It requires great courage and even greater honesty. It requires for us to confront our true selves, which quite often, is not always a pretty thing to behold. Let me quote directly from the ARP manual with some empahsis:
Until we have taken a rigorous, thorough, and honest look at our own lives, our own feelings, our own emotions, motivations, and so forth, we will never be able to identify the things that we need to change and to work on, or in other words, to repent of, in order to allow for the Spirit to have complete sway in our lives.LDS ARP Manual wrote:You make a searching and fearless written inventory of your life, surveying or summarizing the thoughts, events, emotions, and actions of your life, making your inventory as complete as possible.
Doing a fearless and thorough inventory of your life will not be easy. When we say fearless, we do not mean you will have no feelings of fear. You will likely experience many emotions as you survey your life, including embarrassment or shame or fear. Fearless means you will not let your fears stop you from being thorough in the inventory process. In step 4, it means you commit to rigorous honesty as you focus on events in your life, including your own weaknesses, and not on anyone else’s weaknesses.
In the past you probably justified bad behavior and blamed other people, places, or things for the problems you had created. Now you will begin to take responsibility for past and current actions, even though you may need to acknowledge painful, embarrassing, or difficult events, thoughts, emotions, or actions.
If the thought of making a searching and fearless inventory of yourself feels overwhelming, know you are not alone. Our hearts go out to you. We remember our struggles to find the willingness to complete this step. Many of us wondered if we might skip step 4 entirely and still overcome our addictions. Eventually we had to believe the words of those who went before us: “Without a searching and fearless moral inventory, . . . the faith which really works in daily living is still out of reach” (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions [1981], 43).
So often in life we tend to blame others, circumstance, or both for our actions, our behaviors, our dispositions, and/or our continued struggles and mistakes. When we make a fearless and searching moral inventory of ourselves we begin the step of truly being free and allowing God to heal us and to change us completely.As you do your inventory, look beyond your past behaviors and examine the thoughts, feelings, and beliefs that led to your behavior. Your thoughts, feelings, and beliefs are actually the roots of your addictive behaviors. Unless you examine all your tendencies toward fear, pride, resentment, anger, self-will, and self-pity, your abstinence [from past behaviors or addictions] will be shaky at best.
When doing your inventory it is critical that you trust in God. Pray to Him and ask Him to help you see yourself as you truly are. Don't neglect the positive things as well. We are more than just our mistakes. We should acknowledge and recognize the good aspects and the good qualities we have as well. God will also help you to overcome any hesitancy you might have in doing this inventory. He will help you to overcome any tendency to procrastinate.
Also, it is important that you find someone that you can trust to share you inventory with. This can seem extremely scary, especially if we have these dark places in our lives, because we are afraid of how others might judge us. However, this part of the inventory is important because it helps us to be humble and the person we share it with can be an impartial observer of your inventory. Ideally the person you share with will have experience doing an inventory themselves. Just be sure that the person you pick will be trustworthy and will respect you and what it is you are trying to accomplish.
If you want to find ideas on how to start your written moral inventory of yourself, to get more details, and for quotes from prophets and apostles dealing with this idea, please check out this link: https://addictionrecovery.lds.org/steps/4?lang=eng
This has been an important part of my life. It has allowed me to really find out about myself, what drivers me, what motivates me, what bothers me, where am I lacking, and what I need to improve on. Its helped me to recognize how much I truly need God in my life. As I've done this step I have found that I have had greater access to the Holy Spirit because I have been able to repent and to let go of past mistakes and begin to replace them with new habits, new ways of thinking, and new ways of being. God and Christ has been central to this process. Doing a searching and fearless written moral inventory of myself has been one of the most powerful tools that I have used in order to gain access to having the Holy Ghost with me as my constant companion and that is ultimately what I want because it has the fruit of producing true happiness, joy, and peace in life, even during troubled times and troubled circumstances.
-Finrock